bedridden

i feel awful

my chest is achey and tight

my bones are chilled

i am as hot as a freshly boiled kettle

and have this on going ringing in my ear

where did you come from you nasty virus?

i haven't had a flu/cold/virus for years....

working with children has built my immunity up so much

and out of nowhere 

BOOM

i'm hit with the worst cold i've ever had

i'm at home staying with dad at the moment keeping him company 

and turns out his got the same thing as me

maybe our bodies are just so rundown after everything

maybe its part of the healing process?

all i know is that i miss her so much more

i miss her coming in with my medicine

i miss her making me cups of tea

warming up soup for me

rubbing vicks on my chest and back

i miss her telling me to cover my mouth when i cough

i miss her so fucking much

it hurts